C and K Words

Today

23/05/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

A languid feeling persists,
yet I find the strength to arise from the couch.

Pain in places often unseen,
yet you wouldn’t know that I feel this way.

Longing to share my suffering,
yet I don’t want to burden others with illness.

Pretending I can have it all,
yet realising that often it is a struggle to live.

Taking all of the pain and suffering,
yet knowing that there is help along the way.

Something Extra

I had deroofing surgery in my left armpit on Friday, so everything has been up in the air.
Hidradenitis Suppurativa has been a part of my life since I was around 11, yet I didn’t get a proper diagnosis until my mid-30s.
I’m so pleased I found St Vincent’s Hospital Dermatology Unit in Melbourne; they’ve changed my life.
I’m sure I will find inspiration in some random happening or photograph, and I will be back to posting regularly soon.

20/05/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

Snowflakes and Sunflowers

My Winter’s Heart.

You saw apricity within my soul,
or was it a silly projection?

Your Summer heart.

I felt your wild sunflowers
blooming on my skin.

We came together;
Winter and Summer collide.

You said the snowflakes are peaceful,
I said the sunflowers are kind.

16/05/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

My Love

For I found you in the forest,
you with your ancient arms and legs.

When I found you, there was silence,
for we did not need to speak.

For I found an ancient tree,
and
you taught me so much about love.

14/05/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

With the Sea

Far from the traffic
We stop thinking about time
Daydreaming away
Now that the sea is so close
No whispering from afar

11/05/202307/05/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

A Sleepless Night

Noisy Cockatoos
Vocalising their feelings
Feeling so frazzled
My mind is like a blue screen
The Cockatoo says reboot

10/05/202307/05/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

Alone without the Sea

The sea is too wild
the waves are crashing loudly
so unnatural
You boycott walks to the sea
you sit alone wondering

A photo from our trip to Lakes Entrance. This is the Bass Strait.

09/05/202330/04/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

The Amber Girl

She was my sunshine girl,
full of light, flowers, and bee stings.

When I saw her in amber,
my eyes were never more opened.

She might be somewhere,
yet she is no longer in my old life.

I think of her often with a smile,
to have been the one with an amber glow by my side.

08/05/202330/04/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

The Rosewood Tree

Deserted
a lonely tree grows
Tired
waiting by the rubbish
Troubled sleep
awakened
The tree is bleeding

the last urban tree

07/05/202330/04/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

My Dying Leaves

My dying leaves
the Autumn of my life
the Winter of what might have been

Maroon leaves crack and crumble in my hands,
dead before I touch them

I long for the place I cannot find,
the leaves know of not of this place I cannot find
Neither do I

Was it from the past or the future?
I cannot find it

The curtain may close before I get the chance

06/05/202329/04/2023 C and K WordsLeave a comment

Fandango Childhood

Lollipops and sunshine
spinning fairy floss at the show
Barbie and Ken feels

A fandango childhood
everything unnaturally coloured
Nothing of cold reality

You begin to crumble
faced with brown, grey, & black
Sheltered for too long

The dark colours are too much